From the book
***This excerpt is from an advance uncorrected copy proof***
Copyright © 2016 Fiona Davis
New York City, 2016
She'd forgotten the onions.
After all of the preparation, the lists, the running out of work early to finish shopping and buy everything she needed for their special dinner, Rose had forgotten a key risotto ingredient. She checked the pantry, but the basket was empty save for a few remnants of the papery outer layers.
Griff had raved about her risotto soon after they'd started dating, and she remembered how proud she'd been listing off the more surprising ingredients.
"The coconut milk is the secret to it," she'd confided.
"Why coconut milk?" He sat back in the rickety chair she'd bought at the thrift store on Bleecker, his long arms and legs far too unwieldy for her small studio apartment.
"I find it makes the texture especially creamy." She said it lightly, as she collected their plates, as if cooking was easy for her, just another thing she did well, rather than a panic-inducing race to the finish line. "I slowly add the chicken stock and coconut milk to the rice and spices until all the flavors have melded."
"I like the way you say that. Melded. Say it again."
She did so, the way she would on camera, her pitch slightly lower than her conversational voice, clear and sure.
Then he'd swept her up and made love to her on her bed with its tasteful handmade quilt. She'd stifled the impulse to sweep it to the side, so as not to have to send it to the dry cleaners tomorrow, and had instead surrendered to the enormity of him, all muscles and sinew, an athlete's body even at forty-five.
She missed the simplicity and the heat of their life back then, before the angry ex-wife and the surly children punctured their cocoon of happiness. Before she'd given up her apartment and they'd moved into the Barbizon condo on the Upper East Side.
Of course, his ex-wife and children wouldn't share her perspective. To them she was the interloper, taking up Griff 's attention and love. She checked the clock on the oven. Almost six. If she was fast, she could run out to Gourmet Garage and pick up white onions before Griff got home from City Hall.
Her cell phone rang. Maddy again. The fourth call this hour.
"What, Maddy?" She tried to sound irritated, but laughed before Maddy could reply.
"I know, I know. You don't have any time to talk to your best friend right now. You're far too busy doing the dutiful housewife thing, right?"
"Yup. And you're off to the Soapies?"
"Daytime Emmys, if you please. I wish you were coming, Ro. What shoes go with the Michael Kors? Nude or gold?" Maddy's career as an actress had taken off since they'd met in college. Maddy had landed a contract role out of school on a daytime soap opera, and this was her first nomination.
Rose swallowed her guilt at not being by her friend's side. "The nude, definitely. Text me a pic, okay?"
"Any idea what Griff 's big news is yet?"
Rose smiled and leaned back on the kitchen counter. "Probably nothing so big, in the end," she lied. "Maybe he's been promoted again? Such an overachiever."
"I don't think so. Do the math: It's been a year since his divorce was finalized, you've been living together for three months, and it's time to set a date."
"He has been acting weird lately. But what if I'm getting way ahead of myself?"
"Trust your gut."
"My gut says something's up. Even though sometimes it still feels like it's early stages. I mean, we haven't even furnished the apartment yet."
The apartment she both loved and...